you can see the road ahead in your dream

i start placement tomorrow! ahh! nervous and excited.
i still need to plan an appropriate outfit to wear. something business casual -  so sophisticated sounding. 
wish me luck!


heres the song that has been on repeat for the past hour in my room.. feel free to listen!?

the thought is not settling

i've done it. i've completed the human resources management graduate certificate program and i start my 7 week placement on monday. this sounds exciting right? sure it is, however completing the program and starting a placement brings me to a few changes in my life.. im excited, scared, stressed, relaxed, etc.. i could go on about the constantly altering and contradictory emotions im overwhelmed with about these changes but im choosing not to. 
basically, finishing this program means no more school for a long time.. after 20, almost 21 years of school, classes, homework, assignments, tests, and classmates im finished now with all of it. granted.. i do hope to complete an MBA eventually, meaning im not entirely done with school.. but for now, im saying im done! finished! complete! okay so other than being finished school, a change that is going to take me awhile to get used to, im also starting a placement in the human resources department at a hospital. 7 weeks of practical experience.. did i mention it was unpaid? 7 weeks of unpaid work, 8:30 am - 4:30 pm five days a week. yeah.. ahhhh.. not so sure im ready for that. first of all, unpaid sucks -im going to have to take as many weekend/night shifts at work as they will give me.. i do need some source of income!. second of all i've never had a full time job. i've worked 3 jobs in my life and they have consisted of a nursing home (4:30-7:45 shifts 2 or 3 times a week), a tennis club (which i worked 7:30-3:30 but it consisted of me sitting at a computer desk playing solitaire and greeting club members when they came in.. oh and it was maybe 3 times a week) and the current retail job i have (which is definitely not full time).. so yes this placement will be a real change. then there is the whole finding a real.. grown up job/career. after the placement is finished i need to start searching for jobs, sending in resumes and creating cover letters. all that grown up stuff i still feel too young to do. i know, im almost 25.. its not that young!
thats what happening in my life right now. 
im hoping this placement works out good :)
im off to go shopping with my mom and sister for the morning and then dinner in toronto with the boyfriend.
have a great weekend!
<3 

.. but we gamble with expectations

when people disappoint you, what is the reasoning for that? is it that your expectations of them are too high or is it that their actions are not at par with what the general population (society) would expect in that particular situation? have you ever wondered that? sometimes amazing and important people in my life disappoint me and im trying to figure out if i am to blame or them. i honestly hate being disappointed with people.. but on occasion it happens. if i can avoid it i want to. maybe my expectations are too high of them.. maybe i shouldn't expect you to take my favourite movie into consideration when determining what to watch. maybe i shouldn't expect you to remember i hate carrots and ribs. maybe i shouldn't expect you to hangout with me once in a while without your boyfriend "conveniently having failed plans" tagging along. maybe i shouldn't expect you to listen to my favourite band on car rides or tell me your "big news" first. maybe i shouldn't expect you to read the emotions on my face before you act. 
or its entirely possible that in these situations, these individuals are not living up to what is normal behaviour. maybe when it comes to movie selection you are stubborn and selfish and this is the reason you wont let my favourite movie be an option.. in that case.. give over it.. you win some you lose some.. i watch movies you like all the time! maybe you remember i hate carrots and ribs but are trying to prove a point that i should cook for myself.. do that some other way please! i was having an extremely bad day that day and there was nothing else in the house i could make.. maybe you need your boyfriend there at all times of the day because no one is as important as he is.. well i'll tell you what.. that attitude will make you loose many friends.. and maybe its normal to expect that you'd tell me certain information before you tell anyone else.. we have been through a lot together haven't we?.. oh and when it comes to reading my emotions.. if you know me at all.. you know my emotions are capitalized and bolded on my face.. if you care i'd say its reasonable i expect you to read the emotions written on my face and act in a way that coincides with what you read.. no?

"expecting is my favourite crime and disappointment

is always my punishment" - anonymous

i cannot be stopped soon as i start..

remember last july i went to see death cab for cutie at the molson amp with james..?
the band was absolutely amazing and i couldn't wait to see them again. so this thursday they are back in toronto and im totally going. its right in the middle of exams.. as in i have an exam the next day.. but i've worked that into my schedule to accommodate the concert and im beyond excited.. this time its james, tia, brandon and i! i cant wait! they are playing at massey hall this time!


i'll leave you with a video..

years..

this picture makes me smile. i absolutely adore seeing grandparents, great grandparents and all those individuals enjoying and celebrating life when they are socially termed "old". i have no relation to anyone in this photo nor do i know who they are. i found the photo and it made me smile. look at the man! any individual who shows defiance of the stereotype "bitter old people" is amazing, enjoyable to be around and filled with wisdom you will find nowhere else. <3 
have a great weekend!

for the thinkers..

i love thought provoking questions. i love questions i have to think about or create an answer to. i like when the question makes me question things that i dont often think of. so anyways, while im supposed to be working on assignments and studying for exams i was definitely stumbling around the world wide web and found a website with some interesting written thought questions.
some of my favourites:

think about the answers to the questions :)

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter!

i hope everyone has a great easter with lots of chocolate, food and family time

<3 

good friday hike

since i've been young i've always gone on a hike with my family for good friday. 
last year we went out around niagara on the lake. this year we went around webster falls. it was around 14 degrees celcius and not a cloud in the sky. i think guinness completely enjoyed himself..

 he is so good in the car

 we turned our heads for a second and guinness had walked into the stream

and a video