it's like turning pages..

i have an amazon wishlist (hint, hint). 

its pretty much all books.. actually it IS all books.

when the list gets too big or i just get too anxious that i can't wait... i make an order and get some books!! -sometimes im impulsive.

i ordered on sunday and they came by wednesday, nicely packaged and free of shipping costs :)

 The Catcher in the Rye: its one of those books people were forced to read in school yet i've never read it. i've been wanting to get it for two years now and every time im in a used bookstore i forget to look for it.
JailBird: I've heard good and bad things about kurt vonnegut's writing.. i'd like to choose what side i am on in this debate. One of the most deciding factors in ordering this book was sam who has an absolutely beautiful blog ashore. she so often mentions books or quotes and the meanings she pulls from these words  just makes me want to read anything and everything. 
Love Letters of Great Men: sex and the city? yes, this book was discussed in sex and the city before the book even existed. i've been looking for it for the past few months and im pretty sure every chapters/coles/indigo within 200km of my house was sold out of it (its not even new!). 
Before I go to Sleep: i read the back, it seemed like something I would like.
The Art of Seduction: this book is not actually for me, its for terry. he's read another book by the same author and liked it so this is the next one. *i opened it to read the first page and it looks pretty intense.. maybe not my type of novel.
Falling Together: i've read marisa de los santos' other book love walked in and i really loved it, something i was surprised about. i'll see if this one is just as good!

that was my excitement for the week. 

it is supposed to be a beautiful long weekend! even though i will be stuck in the mall working all weekend, many others can enjoy it!

Happy fathers day

HAPPY FATHERS DAY DAD!

my dad really is an amazing father.

he is supportive, caring, strong and understanding.

old school picture of my dad and i.

*honestly.. we still had wall paper in our house and bugs bunny was cool!

ohh and carpet everywhere*

Happy fathers day to dads everywhere!

new job!

today was the last day of my 7 week unpaid placement.. 
last weekend i was looking forward to taking a week off after and then start the job hunt late june..
on tuesday i interviewed for a full time contract position (completely awkward.. my supervisor and her manager were doing the interview)..
yesterday they told me they needed to call my references..
today they offered me the job! i accepted the offer right away.. signed the papers and i get to start monday already!
i guess i wont get a week to lounge around and relax but i am unreasonably excited to start right away!
honestly, its an amazing opportunity for me. its working in a hospital (i've dreamed of it forever - although what i've wanted to do in a hospital has constantly changed from a doctor/surgeon to a research student to an human.resources position - its still been my dream).. its 40 hours a week, 8am to 4pm monday to friday.. no weekend shifts! a 5 minute walk from my house and also i'll be working with some amazing people (and i love that they are all around my age -  we have a lot in common)
its only a contract position but it could turn into something permanent.. i guess i just need to wait and see! 
im going to be a working girl! making my own income (at something other than a part time, minimum wage job)
out of our class of 50 im not sure how many got job offers out of their placements but i doubt its even half. im completely shocked mine turned into a position actually! .. and in other good news.. terry got a job offer too! im entirely proud of him (and he'd probably say im lame for mentioning that in this post - but its true)! now at least we will have some disposable income :) 
thats my good news!
have a great weekend!

again something i have no tolerance for

yesterday it was about 36 degrees celsius outside (96.8 farenheit). it was extremely hot, uncomfortable even. you know what else happened yesterday.. a dog died. A chocolate lab was left in a car for approximately two hours as its owners shopped at a toronto mall. witnesses state the window way barely open and the car was parked in complete sun.. not even the slightest evidence the owners tried to find a patch of shade. mall security was informed, 911 was called, firefighters tried to feed the dog water through the small openings in the window. the new story brought tears to my eyes..

i can't believe the thought of leaving a dog in the car even crosses peoples minds. i have never in my life left my dog in a car and i've never thought of doing so. and to shop for 2 hours while its blistering hot outside and leave the helpless dog to heavily pant as he/she tries to cool off the slightest amount until he can no longer take it.. it breaks my heart.

i dont even know if the fact that this couple had spent their morning with their dog at woofstock better or worse. really.. how can someone be that stupid. dogs are entirely helpless in those situations.. what did they expect the dog to do..? turn the air on when it got too hot!?

just thinking..

have you ever thought about how and when the word deserve is used. we always deserve the good when it happens right..? but we ourselves rarely deserve the bad. the word applies to us or it does not apply based on context. i think i deserve things all the time. i deserve to fall in love and marry a good man. i deserve a good job.. i've worked hard and have completed years and years of school! i deserve this chocolate bar. i deserve to be treated with respect. i deserve! i deserve! i deserve. when bad things happen however, did we deserve these? does anyone deserve to fail a final exam? does anyone deserve to succumb to blindness at the age of 13? does anyone deserve to be abandon or feel unloved? NO! no no and no! why do we deserve the good but not the bad? i dont think we do. i dont think things that we want or things that we dread/fear are deserved by anybody.
i've learned this. i've learned this through conversations with many different people. deserve is one of those words that you cant just use without thought. i've learned to not tell others that i deserve anything if it is just something i want. i want to get married.. but in no way do i deserve to get married over any body else. 
those are my thoughts today