.. to the quiet chaos driving me mad

when i started blogging this was easy - i always had something to say, i always knew what to write. it has become difficult and its driving me crazy. so many thoughts go on in my brain, i want to write about them but sometimes this is not the place. i've created a blog with one intention but i feel i ruined that the second i told anyone about it. 

some blogs are fashion blogs, some are diaries, some are to create awareness, many are lifestyle. this blog is a lifestyle blog - my life, my style... i write about anything in my life worth writing about. i find writing about my days easy - especially when there are pictures involved. writing about books i love, my opinions of controversial topics, holidays i spend with the people that matter to me  -  these are easy. what i find most difficult to write about are my thoughts and/or feelings. when writing about feelings it is important not to come off as some crazy, unstable, psycho girl craving attention. trust me.. thats hard! its hard to write about "feelings" without me sounding like some lovey-dovey, emotional wreck trying to get attention online from virtual strangers. im serious here - thats not the kind of person i am and its not the kind of person i want to be online either. in all honesty, i am  extremely emotional, overly sensitive, melodramatic - whichever term you choose to use - but i am in no way emotional (and on the verge of being unreasonable) to strangers or even distant friends - i save that for the people closest to me.

i guess im justifying this: the fact that im not writing as much is become emotionally there is way too much going on in my life.  the science student i am cannot organize the thoughts nice and lyrical like in order to smartly place them here (so to not come off as overly dramatic). i choose therefore, to not get overly emotional here. i choose not to write about what is personal yet constantly encapsulating my active thoughts. 

September Glossybox

the july glossybox i was thrilled about, i couldn't wait until the august one! when i got the august one i was so disappointed (not because it was not worth it or it had bad products - they just were not for me, the products). the september glossybox came and as soon as i opened it i instantly regretted making my complaints about the august box known to glossybox. the september glossybox was amazing! 
thank you glossybox soo much!

the september glossybox was all about red-carpet-ready glamour and was definitely valued at way more than the $15.00 per month we pay for this wonderful box. 
the september glossybox contained:

1. NYX the crimson amulet collection makeup palette: 24 different eye shadow colours, lip colours, blush, liquid eye liner and an eye shadow base. i haven't used the lip colour yet but i've tried a few of the eye shadows and i love the blushes that i tried! the glossybox arrived right before a wedding i went to so it was perfect! i was able to use colours i've never had before! (i dont often wear much make-up) - this is valued at $25.00!
2. Wella professionals mirror polish shine serum: this product is perfect to use on your hair after you straighten it. i find sometimes my hair looks very dry after i've straightened it but this serum gives my hair a nice shine. the smell isn't bad but its strong - this is valued at $16.99 and its full size!
3. B. Kamins Lip Balm SPF 20: its Canadian! thats a plus! :) and its a good product. its not scented, no colour to it and has SPF protection. no complaints here, i like it. - we got a sample size (4ml)
4. B. Kamins Maple Body Lotion: the smell of this lotion is subtle but nice. it goes on nice and is not oily - we got a sample size in glossybox (we also got a coupon for 25% off B. Kamins Lip Balm or Lotion if we purchase some from the website)
5. Dove Cleartone: i love dove and you can always use more deodorant. this particular cleartone product is supposed to reduce underarm discolouration cause by dry skin. i haven't used it yet but im betting it will like it just as much as all over dove deodorants - we got a sample size

*PS.. we got an email from glossybox yesterday indicating they are raising the price of their monthly subscription to $21.00 from $15.00. that is a pretty significant increase im not happy about... but i'll see how it goes*

"a good man"

i asked you if you were a good man, you gave me the wrong answer. 

the answer is not it's one's own perspective. the answer is not it depends. the answer has nothing to do with comparing you to another man, silly. the answer need not be yes, but should be proud. the answer to my question said by a good man should be positive and hopeful. 

a good man cares, learns and reasons. a good man is open to opinion and difference. a good man loves and respects, is stubborn and has believes. a good man seeks enjoyment and understanding. a good man notices, observes and analyses situations. a good man supports and inspires. a good man has passion, a goal, and a desire to do well. a good man is real, proud and honest. a good man is loved by many, in many different ways. a good man is everything i've listed here and much more.. in you my dear, i see a good man.

"waste no more time arguing about what a good man should be. be one" - Marcus Aurelius

apple picking

its october! i believe october marks the first month of fall (although i've always considered september more fall-like then summer-like - probably because with september starts school). october/september is all about the fun, love and food.. according to me that is. since its my first fall with a full time job i find it a bit more difficult to get into the usual routines of fall photography and all sorts of baking with pumpkins. mmm pumpkin spice muffins! 
i did get a chance to go apple picking though! its become a tradition over the past few years and i love it. i'm never really sure when the best time to go apple picking is. we always seems to go around september or october but this year by mid september there were only courtland and gala apples available. no macintosh, my favourite!

two empty baskets ready to be filled with apples!

 

we ended up spending about $87.00 on apples! i think it was about $1.29 per pound so thats a fair amount of apples! my mom made an apple pie and an apple crisp for dessert. i was apple to make an apple pie for terry and his parents and my sister also took some back to school with her for her and her house mates.
while we were driving back home my dad accused my mom, my sister and i for stealing apples! we each ate an apple while we were there.. one we didn't pay for. we laughed about it but he does have a valid point. imagine how much money this farm is out if every single person eats one apple each time they visit.