since humans are amazingly complex.

im just going to throw thoughts out on this blank screen right now. 
i am so curious about people, about their lives, about their thoughts. i've probably mentioned this before but i want to know it all, as in i should have studied psychology. instead i studied kinesiology.. which is studying human movement, anything physical. i know how the body physically works. i can pretty much name all 206 bones in your body and give me the right instruments i can even tell you the rate at which your body uses oxygen, the water content of your body and even whether or not you have an abnormal heart condition. if you have lost sensation anywhere on your body i most likely would be able to determine which of your spinal nerves is being compressed (or damaged) and i can properly bandage a sprained ankle or dislocated shoulder. sure my degree is extremely practical but how can i understand humans if i haven't studied the psychological aspects. this i find most fascinating. i know we are all physically different.. but psychologically i think differences between humans are impossible to understand.  i dont even think each one of us can properly understand the way our own brains work enough to explain it thoroughly to anyone. if i were to explain how im feeling right now, how im thinking.. im pretty sure words such as frustrated, hopeful, curious would come to my mind. that is how i would describe them but really these words are subjective (as many descriptive words are). does frustration bring on the same emotional or physical reactions for me as it does for terry or my sisters or anyone else? and describe the intensity? whoa.. that just got confusing.. and it also brings on my next curiosity.. how different will two people in the same situation feel and think. i'll use an example of two people in a relationship.. if one in the couple is independent and one is completely dependent.. how would each be affected in a semi-dependent relationship.. maybe the independent individual is more stable.. they would be fine if the relationship drifted slightly more towards dependent while the other may be unable to bear a more independent relationship (or vice versa). does this make sense? maybe not. i cant explain it more, i cant explain my thoughts in a way everyone would understand because its impossible to verbally (or through typing) discuss every factor that comes to mind when these questions come to my mind. i think my point is.. its hard to understand people fully because i find it hard to understand myself fully. its not a morbid thought.. i think people get by fine and can be entirely happy without fully understanding everyone or anyone they know, meet or love. we are all just complex and i love it and hate it all the same.
*first post in a while*


enjoy your sunday <3