busy brain

ive been so stressed lately that i can't sleep. well to be honest im not sure if its stress, maybe its excitement but it feels like stress. pain in stomach, mind racing, not hungry you know, stress related stuff. but i dont know why im stressed. i guess there are many possibilities. for one, im not sure what im doing next year. i applied to college for a post grad program, got accepted, i accepted the offer but im not sure if its really what i want to do. its not my first choice in programs, the program i really want is full. i haven't heard back from the university either. ideally id love to do my masters degree, i think. umm two, stress could be work. i need to find a second job, i dont get the amount of hours i would like where i am currently working. its perfect during the year but annoying during the summer. really i should probably enjoy the lack of hours i have, lots of reading and gym time. three, stress could be that one of my best friends, tia, is getting married in september.. im part of the wedding party and there is soo much to do and i probably should help more than i currently am.. this is a good stress though, im soo excited for her! showers, dresses, celebrations and presents! im pumped for it all! oh or maybe im stressed cause i need to clean my room and go buy a some new room furniture at some point. and im not a pack rat at all but for some reason i have accumulated a collection of old novels and textbooks i dont want to read or use anymore. i need to find a shelter or something of similar sort to give them to. as much as i love used bookstores id rather give the books to a shelter so they can form a small library, so people dont have to purchase books i have already purchased. plus, most books i keep, except for those old series books that i will never read again, could make for a good library lol. for some reason finding a place to put these books is stressing me out lol.
another stress is my kinesiology certification. last year i became a certified kinesiologist and to keep the certification i need to keep up with seminars, workshops and readings to accumulate a certain amount of points (its like any medical doctors, teachers, social workers etc, have to do regarding their own certifications). anyways, the seminars/work shops are expensive and they are all over canada, hard to get to. if i dont keep up with them i loose my certification and it will be much harder to get the certification later when kinesiology becomes more recognized as a medical field in itself. ahhh
i wish i had a cottage lol. cottage life always relaxes me a bit. can't wait til the end of june!..
i think its probably just one of those weeks where everything seems to enhance its significance all at once. really, no matter what i decide to do next year i will be supported by family and friends, and as long as im doing something im taking a direction other than nowhere.
just some random things going on in my brain lately.